what a painfully hot and boring but also very exciting day at the office. maybe something life changing is happening. maybe i'm just imagining things because the last few brain cells that survived the heat, died being in contact with my most stupid colleagues.
the atmosphere at work is really not so great right now. all these new people that can't even do the easiest shit. where do they come from?
so most of the day i spent working on getting a new job and the rest of it i spent dreaming about having this aspired job and finding a spot where i can put my legs up, because they are so crazily heavy in this kind of weather.
i shouldn't be thinking so much about the job thing. probably i already said too much to too many people, but i was so excited today, when i got a positive response on my application today. but then, it's just very positive for me. it doesn't mean anything regarding my chances of getting it.
i start thinking with: it's good i applied, even if i don't get the job, it's important i tried. and then go over to: what if i do get the job, it's scary, all the inconveniences and the uncertainty if i can be good at it (or would like it) but especially being all on my own and making people sad, do i really want that? yes yes, i really want that. but i don't know if i can do it.
but basically, nothing is in my hands for now. i didn't even have an interview yet.

let's have a look at some pictures of better times (at least in some aspects). i took those with my diana camera last time i was on holidays in august 2010. yes, i need holidays again. i went to england with my (före detta) boyfriend to visit his grandparents. it was great, although of course we had one of those pointless fights we used to have. i just love england. i love the weather and grey sky. i love the smell of gravy. i love the filthy houses and badly isolated windows. i love chlorine tasting water and i love carpets in the bathroom.

now i'm going to watch bridget jones' diary and dream of "my mr darcy". who could he be?